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Pressure

Started yet another diet......competition with friends, family and my hubby. Going by percent lost to make it more even since hubby is the only guy and loses fast when he's on track.

We did decent for a bit. I lost the first week. The 2nd week I did everything right but gained. I was very depressed about that and unfortunately turned to food & drink for comfort......I know its a temporary feel good and wish I hadn't since last night turned into today as well......went 10 and 1/2 days without junk or sugar and for me that is a major accomplishment since I keep failing.

Life is beyond stressful and I need to find something to turn to that won't derail me. It is nice to have hubby on board and will definitely help since we won't sabotage each other! With my health I can't exercise to often or too hard or it takes my health down. I need to continue to work full time.....not turning to food or exercise leaves me not sure where to turn.

We begin again Sunday.....we will do this!!

I am doing it.....

Since I posted that blog about needing help I have actually been doing okay!

September 30th I headed back to work and being on nights I tend to do okay on work days, usually. So Wednesday and Thursday I remained low carb and low calorie.

Friday I got off work at 0700 and headed to two grocery stores for some sales to get prepared for eating primal.....I napped a bit and then got up and cooked up pulled pork and cabbage rolls. I did end up eating more calories than I intended and didn't get any exercise in.

Saturday I slept late and caught up on some much needed rest! When I got up I started cooking! BBQ pulled pork, homemade catsup, homemade beef & chicken stock, chicken quarters, homemade mayo and quiche....I did try a couple of things that didn't turn out but what I listed above was good. I ate more than I should have today too but less than Friday.....

Sunday is going to be a veg out day for me since I head back to work Monday night. I will defat my stocks and portion them out for the freezer. I need to do some scanning of old family pictures and I plan to do some reading of the book that I just received, Mark Sisson's The Primal Blueprint......

We now have lots of options for eating lowcarb in the fridge and freezer. No reason not to right? Being prepared will help us stay on track!!

I am up 1.2lb since Thursdays weigh in and am afraid that I will go up a bit Sunday too. I believe that I will be up more when I weigh Sunday. I plan to reign in the picking here and there for Sunday since I won't be cooking up new things to taste. I still have 15-19lbs to lose and really have to keep calories in check.

Hubby is not weighing for a week. I think he is afraid that he will gain eating this way. I have been emailing articles to keep him to try to show him that its okay to eat this way as long as he is foregoing the junk/carbs/sugar.

The sugar and junk are definitely going to be a hard habit to break but we have done it before and gone back to our bad habits. I work in healthcare and even without that worry so much about our health since our family history has heart disease and cancer in it.

I am about done with night shift and can't wait! I start day shift soon. Nights decided they want to do a carry in for me......desserts......I told them not to worry about me and what I can have (I have some major allergies and they wanted to know what to make without them) and they said I have to indulge because the carry in is FOR me......so now I am trying to figure out what to do.....I will have completed nine days without sugar, that one being the 10th and almost complete by then time I head in.....I hate the idea of eating at work (I rarely do unless its a protein shake) and I so don't want that night to send me into binge mode on junk & sugar......I am just sure how I can decline since they insisted on doing the carry in and its for me......I do have one possible plan but not sure if I can pull it off until I am there and see how the assignments work out, etc. Any suggestions?

In need.....

of some major help.......can't seem to keep myself on track......

Did great Friday, Saturday and Sunday because of work......screwed up Monday big time, gained weight and felt bad because of it yet continued the same route Tuesday......

My only saving grace is that I head back to work Wednesday and Thursday and will do well again...

Now I need to find a way to not give into hubby's influence by making suggestions of food that I need NOT eat as well as not drinking all of the mini bottles of alcohol he left all over things I use each day......

How the hell do I learn to say no to junk and yes to health and fat loss?

I need to do this for ME and yet I keep F-ing it up.....

I so wanted to be at goal by Halloween......I doubt I can be now but if I uit screwing up I could still drop a lot of fat by then.....

Stay tuned.....

Back at it

Well after going on a crazy bender with binges for awhile. I am back to eating healthy, trying to lose the fat and exercise.....

I had a great vacation but man does the weight come on fast yet take so long to take off!

From May 30th to August 2nd I was down 23.2lbs and from August 2nd to August 11th I went up 9.9lbs!! Currently I am still up.....I need to lose 7.1 of that......I tell you it is hard to stop this binge mode but I am bound and determined to do it.

I had planned to meet my goal by Halloween and I believe I can still do it if I am consistent and not bingeing......I am even thinking about not cheating on my upcoming birthday although hubby doesn't like the sound of that. I am still what, like 21 to 26lb from goal and want to reach it in 9 weeks.....so I HAVE to be consistent to lose 2.33 to 2.88lb every week from now until then!

Wish me luck!

I suck

at dieting right now.....I mean what, right at the end of the 3 month tiny twits challenge I start bingeing and can't stop? WTF? I can't say there are good reasons or excuses but there are definitely lots of regrets! I am up 10lbs in 8 days.....retaining a lot of water and it is very painful and yet I continue to eat? I am guessing it will be higher tomorrow but it is my own doing.

I plan to do a 40 hour water fast (give or take, might be a few more hours but that will be the least). Thursday is my anniversary and I will fast until that dinner. Not sure if we are going out or not at this point. I have something here I am fine to eat and we have a movie I have been wanting to watch too.....so either out or in are fine by me. I can't believe I am so fat and bloated for my anniversary :(

Once dinner is over Thursday night I plan to do a week of somewhat extreme to get myself back on track. It will be a week of alternating between water fast days and protein shake days.....that is in anticipation of an event we have the 21st. I need to at least get off all that I gained and get to my low that I saw August 2nd before I lost control again.

I sure wish I hadn't ever had that cheat after eating clean 34 days because I would be down so much lower by now and not constantly thinking about food......when I weighed in August 2nd I wanted to lose 7lb from that weigh in by the 21st......now its so much more and I will never make it.

I will get myself back on track though and lose it all. It will just be later then I wanted to on the calendar. I still think that I will be at my final goal and working on maintenance by Halloween if I can get my act together and stick with it!

I will, I will, I will.....come one people, cheer me on....I need HELP here!

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